{Buff Mama Monday} Negative Thinking

I maintained my weight this week, which is not exactly what I was hoping for but I’ll take it. I was out of town for a few days and that certainly didn’t help, especially when I was tempted with amazing food galore the entire trip. And then it took a good week to get back on schedule with a toddler, so we’ve all been sorta off around here this week. I’m getting back on track today though and have started the new Nutrisystem SUCCESS program, which I’m really excited about. I love the changes they made to their program, like incorporating protein drinks for added nutrients (plus they are just quick and easy). I’ll be vlogging about their new program next week, stay tuned.

With my scale not moving as fast as I want it to, negative eating habits and thoughts are creeping back in. I make unhealthy deals with myself, “I can eat ice cream now and I just won’t eat breakfast tomorrow” or “I didn’t work out so no snacks for me all day”. I’ve been super stressed lately, with so much on my plate, and this is how I cope. These “deals” aren’t healthy and really aren’t helpful to my weight loss journey. Having dealt with an eating disorder in college, I don’t want to go back to that place. So, I’m stopping the negative thoughts right here.

My plan for this week is to NOT weight myself until weigh in day on Monday. My life shouldn’t revolve around a scale. It is telling when my 18 month old hops up on the scale every time we’re in the restroom, imitating his mommy. If I do anything right as a parent, it will be teaching Logan how to respect his body. Just maybe I’ll learn how to respect my own body in the process. Maybe I’ll learn to love my body NOW, instead of waiting until I’m 10…15…20lbs lighter. For goodness sake, I’m at an 18lb weight loss and that is not too shabby!